I just want to walk away from my own life. Not see things through my eyes for a while, and instead just make occasional visits to check up on myself. Just enough to see how I’m doing and to make sure I’m on the right track, but not be confined in it. Because I feel like I’m always in a prison.
Why am I so unhappy with life anyway? It’s not that I’m ungrateful. Maybe it’s the future that daunts me. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know where I’m going.
Transgender Miss Universe Canada Finalist Jenna Talackova Disqualified From Competition
http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2012/03/24/transgender-miss-universe_n_1377147.html?ref=gay-voices&ir=Gay+Voices
I don’t know the rules, but I think she should’ve stayed because she primarily identifies herself as female. I still think she’s gorgeous though.
“Dude Liz, you look like a big ball of waterproof” -Jason Chang Liu
hahaha -__-” I’m gonna miss having class with you, no lie.
my eyes were swollen this morning from the instant I opened my eyes. It wasn’t until I looked in the mirror, did I truly see how hideous I looked. Yesterday’s became uncontrollable. I couldn’t stop. Especially knowing that nobody is here to hear me, it just kept running. It even became harder to breathe. I don’t remember the last time I did this.. Until I was tired.. Until I was physically too exhausted from the simple act.. Until I fell asleep.
Yesterday’s thoughts were real. And when I woke up, they still felt the same. It’s so easy to give it all up. Even easier knowing that not much will be missed from everyone else’s lives if it did happen. But it is selfish. And at times like this, Keith’s voice is always there with me. But how long will this hold out?
It should be a crime to leave me alone with my thoughts. And even harder to admit that.. I need people. I need to spend time with so many others.. that I have not made time for recently. Because simply being with them would have helped. It would have helped so much.
I shouldn’t have stayed home alone yesterday. really
